My "Other" Sister

... I didn't know my sister read my Blog until I saw this comment on my recent post, The Next Place. When my email inbox alerted me that I had a comment from "Anonymous," I had no idea what I was in for. My sister and I have a really hard time talking about this and putting into words just how hard of a time we had and still have with the loss of our little sister.

I wanted to share this with you, my readers, because one thing I like to do on my Blog is share how wonderful my friends and family are. I think this note from my Sister says it loud and clear...

"Dearest Rach,

I just wanted to tell you how much I love that you shared this part of your life and especially the significance of this book on your blog. I cried as I read every word of your post, understanding each and everything you felt that day. It never goes out of memory. Long before she had been sick, I remember us saying to each other that we wouldn't know what we would do if we lost her and we did not want to imagine having to live without her. Sadly that day came. Here we are three years later. None of it was easy, but we got through her death. We have used many important tools along the way to guide us; our faith, strength from each other, our family, friends and the beautiful memories of our life with her. She would be so proud of you Rachel, or I should say... She is very proud of you and so am I.

 Lots of love from your other sister,



Isn't that the sweetest? I am so lucky to have her.



A Bridal Shower

Last Sunday afternoon I was pulled out of the house by G and when I returned a few hours later, I was greeted by all of my friends, cousins and aunts. My Mom, MOH, MIL and SIL had been planning a party for a couple of weeks and with G's help it was a huge surprise. I have never been on the receiving end of a surprise party, usually I'm the one fussing about making sure things are clean and food is ready, but this time I just had to show up! The girls had the house decorated beautifully with silver, pink, purple and white decorations. Flowers, diamonds, streamers, everything and anything Wedding was strung throughout the house. With all the food that was there, I'll be lucky if I can fit into my dress! Chowder, ribs, meatballs, salads, dips, spreads, punch, brownies, cake, lemon squares, cheese, champagne... So much for that strict diet but, no complaints, the food was amazing!

I was so happy to be surrounded by all the special ladies in my life. Hearing them say that they wouldn't miss it made me feel very special. Some even traveled as long as five hours to be here! I was and still am so overwhelmed by the crowd, the gifts, and the effort that had gone into this party. 

For Erica - A very special thanks goes out to you, my sister, my MOH, my BFF. You are the best at all three. You went above and beyond and really made me feel like a Princess. I love you and I am so excited to enter into Wife-hood with you by my side and my coach!

Friends and family, know that it really warmed my heart to be treated to such a wonderful afternoon. Thank you for everything; your friendship, your support and all the laughs. I will treasure the notes and cards you wrote forever, showing support and love for G and I as we enter into married life! Your confidence that our future will be a happy one means the world to me.

My Bridal Shower will be a day I will never forget, one for the scrapbook for sure!

Rachel Emmilee


The Next Place

Today, May 18th, marks the third year of my little sister Christine's death. It's amazing how time goes by so fast but the memory remains so fresh and so new. I remember the weather that morning, the feeling of fear, the pain I felt in my chest, the confusion and the anger. I miss her everyday, but on this day three years ago, I felt my world crashing down on me. My best friend was taken from me, she took her last breath and she was gone.

The day after her passing I was gifted with a book that helped me find peace in it all. I read the book over and over and keep it on display in my living room. I decided to read it this morning and once again, it warmed my heart and made me feel calm.

The next place that I go will be as peaceful and familiar as a sleepy summer Sunday and a sweet, untroubled mind.
And yet... it won't be anything like any place I've ever been... or seen... or even dreamed of in the place I leave behind.
I won't know where I'm going, and I won't know where I've been, as I tumble through the always and look back toward the when.
I'll glide beyond the rainbows.
I'll drift above the sky.
I'll fly into the wonder without ever wondering why.
I won't remember getting there, somehow I'll just arrive.
I'll know that I belong there, and I'll feel much more alive than I have ever felt before.
I will be absolutely free of the things that I held onto that were holding onto me.
There will be no room for darkness in that place of living light,
Where an ever-drawing morning pushes back the dying night.
The very air will fill with brilliance as the brightly shining sun and moon and half a million stars are married into one.
The next place that I go won't really be a place at all.
There won't be any seasons - winter, summer, spring or fall.
Nor a Monday,
Nor a Friday,
Nor December,
Nor July...
And the seconds will be standing still, while hours hurry by.
I will not be a boy or girl, a woman or a man.
I'll simply be just simply, me. No worse or better than.
My skin will not be dark or light, I won't be fat or tall.
The body I once lived in won't be a part of me at all.
I will finally be perfect.
I will be without a flaw.
I will never make one more mistake or break the smallest law.
The me that was impatient, angry or unkind, will simply be a memory, the me I left behind.
I will travel empty-handed.
There is not a single thing I have collected in my life that I would want to bring except...
The love of those who loved me, the warmth of those who cares.
The happiness and memories and magic that we shared.
Though I will know the joy of solitude... I'll never be alone.
I'll be embraced by all the family and friends I've ever known.
Although I might not see their faces, all our hearts will beat as one,
The circle of our spirits will shine brighter than the sun.
I will cherish all the friendship I was fortunate to find, all the love and all the laughter from the place I leave behind.
All these good things will go with me, they will make my spirit glow.
That light will shine forever in the next place that I go.

-Warren Hanson

My Dear Sister, I love you and miss you more everyday.

Cake Batter Fudge

I made this delightful treat last weekend for a baby shower, and it was a hit. (Source below)


  • 1 stick of butter
  • 2 cups sugar
  • 3/4 cup sour cream
  • 1 tsp salt
  • 1 package (12 oz) white chocolate chips
  • 1 jar marshmallow cream or fluff
  • 1 tsp vanilla extract
  • 1/4 cup dry yellow cake mix
  • Sprinkles


1. Prepare an 8x8 or 9x9 pan by lining it with aluminum foil and spraying the foil with nonstick cooking spray.
2. Place the butter, sour cream, salt, and sugar in a heavy-bottomed medium saucepan over medium-high heat. Stir until the sugar and butter melt.
3. Continue to cook the fudge, stirring frequently, until it comes to a full boil and bubble. Once bubbling, cook it for five minutes, stirring constantly to prevent scorching.   
4. After five minutes, remove the pan from the heat and add the white chocolate chips and the marshmallow cream. Stir vigorously until the chips and cream are melted and incorporated. If necessary, return the fudge to the heat for brief periods to melt the chips.
5. Add the vanilla and the dry cake mix and stir well. You can even use a whisk to make sure that any small clumps of cake mix are completely mixed in. Taste the fudge, and if desired, add another spoonful or two of cake mix until the flavor is as strong as you'd like. (I ADDED A TSP OF ALMOND EXTRACT, AND FOLDED IN SPRINKLES)
6. Pour the fudge into the prepared pan and smooth it into an even layer. Scatter the sprinkles all over the top and press gently so that they adhere to the fudge.
7. Allow it to set at room temperature for 3-4 hours, or in the refrigerator for 1-2 hours. To serve, cut it into small 1-inch pieces. Store Cake Batter Fudge in an airtight container at room temperature for up to one week or in the refrigerator for up to two weeks.

Rachel Emmilee

*This recipe was found via Google Search


Tagged, I'm IT! (Part One)

Yay! A few mornings ago I woke to find another Blog award sitting in my inbox! Wil.Harris3 awarded me a special tag that suggests my Blog to their readers. Wil.Harris3 are three sisters that share a Blog and write about fashion, do's and don'ts, tips and how to's... It's a very informative, inspiring Blog that I visit regularly and thoroughly enjoy. Thank you ladies!
To keep this game of tag going I have to tell you 11 random facts about myself, answer questions Wil.Harris3 asked me and of course, tag my favourite Bloggers! (Tag You're IT, Part Two is in the making...)


11 Random Facts

1) I am a Registered Massage Therapist.
2) I prefer a lazy movie night over a glamorous night out.
3) In all my years, I still haven't mastered blow drying and styling my hair in good time.
4) I'm one of those people that feels the need to tell you how crazy my dream was last night.
5) I am addicted to self adjusting my sacrum and SI joints by "cracking" my back several times a day. (Not good!)
6) I recently started collecting delicate tea cups.
7) I am 25, but pushing couches together, making pillow forts and watching cartoons is right up my ally.
8) I don't have any tattoos.
9) My hair was the blackest of black and blondest of blonde, and surprisingly both could pass as my natural hair color.
10) I often wonder why HE picked ME.
11) I will spend hours upon hours cleaning and scrubbing my house, but I'll be the first one to throw dirty laundry on the floor.

Wil.Harris3 Asks...

1. What song describes your life right now?

2. What are 3 words that describe your style? 

3. If you could rid the world of one thing, what would it be? On a serious note I could never pick just one thing to get rid of; sickness, war, hunger, money, debt etc... Wouldn't it be great if food never expired?

4. What is the cheapest gas price you can remember? I don't think I ever paid any attention.

5. Who is the celebrity you'd most likely to be best friends with? Tori Spelling!

6. What's the funniest thing you did as a kid that your parents still talk about to this day? So many things! I guess I was quite the character... One story I hear over and over is that I would sing, "Part Of Your World" and I'd hold myself up on the arm of the couch pretending I was on a rock in the ocean with my hair blowing in the wind.

7. If you could be an ice cream flavor, what would you be? I once worked in an Ice Cream Barn and when G was chasing after me he'd visit EVERY SINGLE DAY and order his fav, Maple Walnut! I think I'd have to go with that... 

8. When do you feel your sexiest? After a evening bubble bath!

9. What is your favourite line from any movie?
"If I forget to tell you later, I had a really nice time tonight" - Pretty Woman
"I love yah, always have, always will." - Braveheart

10. If you were a super hero, what would be your superpower? I watched Heroes and would be happy with any of the following powers: the ability heal fast and survive anything, fly all over the world, go back and forward in time, crack codes to bank/ATM machines OR to be invisible. All of these powers would have amazing benefits.

11. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
What time is it?
How much longer can I sleep?
What do I have to do today?

To be continued...

*Watch for Tag You're IT, Part Two*