The day after her passing I was gifted with a book that helped me find peace in it all. I read the book over and over and keep it on display in my living room. I decided to read it this morning and once again, it warmed my heart and made me feel calm.
The next place that I go will be as peaceful and familiar as a sleepy summer Sunday and a sweet, untroubled mind.
And yet... it won't be anything like any place I've ever been... or seen... or even dreamed of in the place I leave behind.
I won't know where I'm going, and I won't know where I've been, as I tumble through the always and look back toward the when.
I'll glide beyond the rainbows.
I'll drift above the sky.
I'll fly into the wonder without ever wondering why.
I won't remember getting there, somehow I'll just arrive.
I'll know that I belong there, and I'll feel much more alive than I have ever felt before.
I will be absolutely free of the things that I held onto that were holding onto me.
There will be no room for darkness in that place of living light,
Where an ever-drawing morning pushes back the dying night.
The very air will fill with brilliance as the brightly shining sun and moon and half a million stars are married into one.
The next place that I go won't really be a place at all.
There won't be any seasons - winter, summer, spring or fall.
Nor a Monday,
Nor a Friday,
And the seconds will be standing still, while hours hurry by.
I will not be a boy or girl, a woman or a man.
I'll simply be just simply, me. No worse or better than.
My skin will not be dark or light, I won't be fat or tall.
The body I once lived in won't be a part of me at all.
I will finally be perfect.
I will be without a flaw.
I will never make one more mistake or break the smallest law.
The me that was impatient, angry or unkind, will simply be a memory, the me I left behind.
I will travel empty-handed.
There is not a single thing I have collected in my life that I would want to bring except...
The love of those who loved me, the warmth of those who cares.
The happiness and memories and magic that we shared.
Though I will know the joy of solitude... I'll never be alone.
I'll be embraced by all the family and friends I've ever known.
Although I might not see their faces, all our hearts will beat as one,
The circle of our spirits will shine brighter than the sun.
I will cherish all the friendship I was fortunate to find, all the love and all the laughter from the place I leave behind.
All these good things will go with me, they will make my spirit glow.
That light will shine forever in the next place that I go.
|My Dear Sister, I love you and miss you more everyday.|