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Happy Birthday, Sweet Sister...

yesterday was my sister's birthday. she's in heaven, 22 years old. i was emotional on and off all day. i was thinking of her and all the things we'd have in common at this point in our lives being in our twenties together. my spirits were lifted throughout the day signing into facebook to see messages from family and friends who are also remembering her today.

i spent the afternoon with some of my favorite people, g of course, his mom, and my parents... pool, bbq and some laughs, christine wouldn't have had it any other way.

i couldn't bring myself to visit her grave, i have only been there 4 times since... it seems to be a lot easier for my parents and sister, but it just really brings me down. it's something i need to work on. sitting around yesterday with my family, i thought about how much she would love our "new" home and the pool especially. i find it so hard to accept that she died before i moved home, before i bought a house, before i got married, before i could start a family of my own... we would have had so much fun living 10 minutes away from each other... there are so many things that i would love to share with her, even Glee... She would freaking love Glee.

happy birthday, sweet sister... xoxo

rachel emmilee
xo

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  1. this is a beautiful post. x Precious

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  2. Can't wait to see the honeymoon pictures! We know what it like losing a sibling and overtime the pain is replaced when happy and funny moments. Happy birthday to your sister!!
    ps. we're following you on Instagram!

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    1. thanks ladies! :)
      found you on IG, following!

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  3. Your sister is always with you. And any time you think of her it's just proof that she's thinking of you too. I wish her a Happy Birthday.
    Wedding posts are just great so do keep sharing. :3

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